lifelong dreams
2003-07-02 . 12:50 p.m.

I hate making decisions.

I'm the youngest child, so usually I think I just go with the flow, following behind my older sisters and everyone else around me. But now I've really got to start thinking about what to do with my life.

Since a very young age, I've wanted to be an actress. I've been told by numerous strangers and by those who know me that I would be excellent, by what they've seen in the plays I've been in.

But I'm kinda tired of the good old bullshit. Acting is just hiding behind a character. I'm tired of hiding.

When am I going to start living for myself and not caring about what the people around me think?

I could simply keep on keeping on, or I could go out and be me.

It sounds so fucking wonderful.

My family truly thinks I'm crazy lately because I've been bringing up insane things that I want to go out and do.

But is it so terrible that I might live a somewhat adventurous life, and maybe just possibly enjoy it????

I'm getting out of here. What can stop me?

-SnubReality

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